Things are finally ironing out in this spiritual life of mine. Not only are things getting better but its aboutt o get even more exciting after having had read this book. For those of you that dont know me, im a book junkie. I love reading and cant get enough it. I read everything, anywho.....this past sunday at church the pastor preached about giving. At the end of the service he gave as a gift to the congregation this booked called The Blessed Life. WOW!!!! the book is about biblical principles about tithes and offerings. It wasnt just your typical give blabla and be blessed type of teaching. He really got into your heart and began to show you what it really meant to tithe, and offer. I believe i obtain this gift giving gift. (if you know me your probably have goten a bunch of cards from me (: )So im cautious when reading and hearing material int his area. not out of stubborness or selfishness but because i dnt want to be manipulated or given scriptures that have been modified and in greed presented to me with the wrong motives. Needles to say this book was NOT that at all. It got to the core of the heart and made me realizing the reality of greed and selfishness and being untrusting, it taught me about sowing,not just my money but my time, forgiviness, love, prayers and so many other things. It has truely taken my perspective on many things and has ultimately blessed my vision in places where i had no sight. One of the best, most humble preachings about Giving ive ever read. I even felt appreciated by the writer. i could feel his love and joy of giving. So pure, so humble, so spirit lead....thank God Pastor Toledo is a Giver :) im excited to put these things to the test ...i am absolutely excited about whats going to occur in my life!!1 praise be to God and my lord Jesus Christ
Today I experienced one of the most difficult things ill probably have to face. Through out the day when i was trying to pull myself together and it seemed impossible, all these worship songs started to come to my mind. Im talking songs i havent even heard since i first got saved. I was confused and shocked, and hurt and uneasy, my mind was pasting looking for a concrete thought and i realized that the holy spirit was ministering to me through these worship songs. I needed peace, Gods peace and how many of us know that that peace really does surpass all understanding....... You can tell when things are from God, there is peace in your heart about whats in front of you. A Lovely thought is that God blesses without sorrow and oh how grateful i am for that. Im not sure what the lord has in store for me and my daughter but i know that after this season.....im not trying to do things with out him.
I positioned myself to sit for a moment and allow myself to just "shut off." When I did i had a very brief moment of peace over my heart. Couldnt have been more than five minutes or so but its sufficient and its lasting me. Those five minutes massaged my achy, sore heart. It calmed all the waves of emotionas and brought me back to him. getting ready to turn the page and with every little bit of strength i have, i could have the courage to put the pen back in Gods hand and let him write the next chapter. Thank you lord that you NEVER leave nor forsake.
Peace & Blessings
GP
Please excuse my aggression but im dead aggrevated with some things. What's Gud with everybody always coming to me about my flaws? It dont ever be like, " yo you was wrong for such and such." its always,"Aint you Christian, why did you used to a,b, and c?" Like really?! Are you serious? Get this...sometimes it be the Christians....Smh....But i will say this....im the least to say i am any where near being perfect, so i cant be mad when im faced with such ignorent questions. Man that gets aggrevating at times. Ugh...so anyways
Since we "keepin it real," i must say something else (i always got sum to say) it took me forever to figure out this blogging business so if you have tips for how you use it..please let me know....Tomorrowz a big day for me, going through a process that aint the easiest so please keep me locked into your prayers......i might just do sum coo with this blogging business.....any suggestions? lol
I technically got his to keep up with Frankie and janelle (Boo and Aasha) Chy, and Benny since they got ghost across the world......i love yall, love what you do....miss you guys!!
Im out, gota think of something creative to write... peace n blessings
GP
Im in a field past the wrong or right. Three years of being a Self proclaimed Christian believer and im finally getting to know the REAL Jesus. He says he will take us from Glory to glory and i've seen his hand upon my life. It's been one big transition after another. In three years ive come out of idol worship, a marriage, and now im going to be a mother. WHAT is going on? lol (testimony coming to you soon)
I cant say i understand any of it but what are the fruits i ask myself all the time? The fruits are this.....at one point i was transformed externally: faithfully going to church, praying, fasting, I "looked like an all around "Good Christian," but my heart was wrong! Just because a wound has a band aid on it doesnt mean its healed. Thankfully my God is one that heals.
Needless to say i see the wind dying down around me, the trees are starting to calm down, the clouds are less dark and i sit.........peeling off all the band aids, cleaning up all the scraps, pulling back my hair and taking a deep breath. Its the end of this season for me and now it would seem that i look externally horrible, but the interior is changing and soon it'll show for the glory of God! I am just beautifully broken....im just .....ME!!! Gp
I had not the slightest idea how complex giving birth was. From the time your water breaks i would asum is when it all starts HA! What a movie deception. There so much to think about. Medication or not? natural with no pain relief, even more complicated. For those of you who know me, i am naturally (by nature/curse) a complicated person. Im taking the natural child birth head on. Theres different methods, techniques, positions, and a trillion things to help everything!! WOA. While my brain is going a hundred miles per hour, along with everything else, i find a quiet place in my mind to pray.....lord....please calm my mind....and give me the supernatual ability to deliver this baby the way you want her delivered. Suddenly all the anxiety and details dont matter (well kinda) lol Gods going to be in the delivery room , outside the delivery room, the doctor , the nurse, heck even the traffic director that day to ensure that our little girl is safe and sound, born in his presence. Woot woot i declare and decree that....feeling better already...what a day!!! Praise God that God is in charge of the details. :)
